Every Superhero has his/her weakness… That weakness proves that they are still human and not completely invincible… Well lately I had been thinking that I was invincible, I mean nothing could penetrate this heart of Ice Cold Steel. I was convinced. Yeah! Before you ask, I do consider myself a superhero… There’s Superman, Batman, Ironman, all of the X-men, hell there is even a Wonder Woman. So why can’t I be… you ready for this…. ta dadada ta daaa! THE MANTENTENCE MAN! Ok ok ok… I have to work on my intro, but I know you can picture me in my black cape and Under Armour compression shorts (tights aren’t manly), with a tool belt around my waist and a hammer and nail logo on my chest.... LMBAO.
Well this morning I found my weakness and it came in the form of a Christmas wish list. I was talking to Mini Me (CJ my son) on Skype last night and I asked him what he wanted for Christmas. Asking a child what he wants for is just plan crazy because usually they ask for about 50 different things and the price is not an issue because they don’t have to pay for it. Well CJ only had a three present wish list, and here is what he wanted:
1) A Percy the train for his train track (one of Thomas the trains friends) to replace the one or two he had already broken ($10.99).
2) A whole lot of Lightning McQueen cars to add to the 25 he already has ($23.99).
3) Lastly he wanted his daddy to be there when he woke up that morning...priceless. After I explain to him that I am far way and I wouldn’t be there; this is he conversation that we had:
CJ: “Well how about this… you can pick me up in your fast car that way you can come and get me”
Me: “CJ, daddy doesn’t have his car”
CJ: “Well how about this… you can pick me up from my mommy’s house and take me to get Percy” (the train he wants).
Me: “CJ daddy won’t be home for a long time, but he will buy you anything you want”
CJ: “ I just want you to come and get me and take me to your house for my birthday then”
Mommy: “ CJ your daddy is going to be gone for along long time… he is going to miss Christmas and your birthday, but he is coming to get you when he gets back”
CJ started to cry once his mother finally broke it down to him. Due to the elements here in Iraq the sand and dust was starting to make my eyes water. That was the moment I realized that my Mini Me would spend this entire holiday season plus his 5th birthday without me. That’s how I found my weakness. My weakness is CJ. I should have known because I remember taking him to get his shot as a baby and him crying and giving me that 'you’re not going to protect me look. I remember fighting back the tears then…. I normally end my blog by saying "these are JUST MY THOUGHTS", but today I will say, THIS IS JUST HOW I FEEL. I guess you would have to be a parent to understand...
There is no sand and dust here in the DMV, but it sure brought tears to my eyes as well. Your "mini me" misses you dearly and he cant wait till you are back safe and sound. Guess he takes after his mother in not wanting much... just time
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ReplyDelete*tear*
ReplyDeleteI am a parent brother... and I see my kid infrequently too. That one got me.
ReplyDeletei feel your pain Brother.
ReplyDeleteI know I am about a week a lil late, well about a week late with my comment but I felt compelled to chime in and say I understand exactly how you felt C Hen and that was very deep and hit close to home as a parent we try to give our kids the world and at times when our hands are tied it buts our back against a wall because they don't understand circumstances that cannot not be controlled. On a liter note you sounded like you were doing a bid up North lol
ReplyDeleteOkay Chauncey my eyes are watering, so well said and sweet.
ReplyDeleteI'm a parent and know exactly how you feel! Hope you have a wonderful holiday season and you are able to at least be with your son through Skype! You'll be home soon!
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